The thing is that diabetes’ behavior is not set in stone. You can not and should not expect it to go according to any plan. You can not and should not compare yourself to any other diabetic. You’ll only end up breaking your own heart.
I write this blog in the hopes of reaching out to other diabetics that have a really hard time controlling their diabetes like I do. I would love to say that every diabetic has a tough time, but some have found it a little easier than others.
I’m not one of them.
Each individual life, each tiny little thing, order, choice, genetic makeup, luck of the draw, has an effect on our diabetes. And this means each diabetic’s experience is unique to them.
But not totally unique. Yes, there are similarities, and there are probable outcomes based on certain choices and blood sugar patterns. But every individual story is different from the next. We are similar enough to be able to relate to each other’s experiences, but different enough to be unique.
I’m here to reach out to those who struggle everyday, not just physically, but psychologically and emotionally as well, with the impact of diabetes.
Those of you who wake up and think, “another day to fail”.
Those of you who think you are a bad diabetic. You are not. It is tough, keep trying. Here are a few little tips to think about in figuring it out and getting a foothold:
- Make sure you have an endocrinologist who is willing to look at the whole picture. They may be highly trained and educated, but this also means they have a tendency to get tunnel vision. Make sure they listen to what you have to say and are willing to help figure it ALL out with you. Yes, your bad choices in life have hurt your control, but sometimes there is another underlying issue (illness, etc.) as well that is just complicating your ability to control your diabetes.
- Talk to other diabetics. We chronic illness sufferers tend to become closed up and avoid talking about or even revealing that we have a chronic condition. We feel ashamed, like lesser humans, or we just don’t want to face our own problems so we don’t let anyone else know about them either. But when we close up we also shut off our ability to learn more about our condition. And we lose our ability to relate to like persons. And isolating yourself only makes you feel alone in your suffering when there are so many others out there going through the same thing. And you can help each other!
- Never, ever give up. This is probably the most difficult thing to do because diabetes is always changing and we must learn to adapt. It feels like once you finally get it, the rules change. Once you finally fix one issue two more pop up out of the blue. You just want to throw your hands in the air, plop down on the floor, and drown in your own tears.
I totally understand your struggle. The frustration is real. The hopelessness is overwhelming.
Don’t give up, please, don’t.
If you need to talk, and want to talk, I am around. I will listen. You can find me at the following places…as well as many other diabetics willing to be there with you.
TuDiabetes – My username is Tamra11